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Travelogue
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Insane: Hintergedanke

You want me to fight for you?
If that means fighting with myself, then I’ve risked my life for you
You wanna be forgiven,
but you don’t wanna know your crimes, just the bliss of innocence

I don’t know what you expect from me I’m not a damn thing like I was
Haven’t I hurt you enough to convince you, I’ve hurt you just because?

You wanna trust me, except when I tell you that you can’t
‘Cause I’m nothing lovely.
Beneath this skin, I wanna be like you
Want you to see yourself in me, and live in my nightmare

Smiles and beauty never fade in photographs
They hide in sheets while bodies try the same
Time becomes the fragrance of the frozen past
And haunts the hearts that live outside of frames

Would you mind if I break you, dethrone and disgrace you, in the name of Love?
You’re my scarlet forgiveness, my merciful mistress, unjaded and stung

Would you mind if I kill you, betray and reveal you, in the name of Love?
You’re my unholy scripture, enabler, and victim, of all that I’ve done

You wanna be enticing, to an endless appetite
Darling, It’s still lying.. if you lie to yourself

Let me ask you a question, let your “yes” be “yes” and your silence the same
Is your back to the darkness, the same way your god’s is, in heavenly shame?
Do you pray to disarm the mirror, and pose like the picture, of all that you claim?
If you’re as sick as your secrets, are you barely breathing, and cold in your veins?

You want me to fight for you? Who’s your worst enemy?

Like You: Hózhó

Wish I were a run away freight train, ending up where nobody knew…
I wouldn’t need to leave a bread crumb, I’m done, it would never even get used
After another long day without a saint to save me from the hurricane flood rain, but baby there’s you

And like a king who returns his crown
For you I lay my armor down

Well it’s a long dark road, so I gotta keep running
But I’ll take it slow cause I’m lucky for somebody like you
And there’s a lot of dotted lines when you don’t have money
But it’s water into wine when I’m looking at a body like you
Somebody like you

If I’m my own worst enemy, baby you’re my trojan horse
When I’d rather be the last man standing than be the one to change my course
But to stand alone after the final battle couldn’t match the glory of the road untraveled to you

And as this boat nears the waterfall
I’ve lost the will to fight at all

Weightless as I fall
An effortless collide
But they can save their cannonballs
Who I am doesn’t want to survive

Fight to fight no more
Die to live again
Drowning in the perfect storm
Forgetting not to breathe you in

February Winter: Goya

In this February winter I am never very sure
What you hide around each corner, what you hold behind each door
And it’s only what you give me and it’s never any more
So I hold my breath and bite my tongue as I wait for what’s in store

I can’t do this anymore
And you can’t tell me we’re the same

If it’s the truth you choose to give me then I need a little more
‘Cause it’s only once the faith falls through that you show up at my door
So you play your sacred minor but you never touch the keys
Then you run away inside yourself and it’s always up to me

In this February winter, I am lost and insecure
But the sympathy you save for me isn’t what I came here for

Sonder: Petrichor

I need this, your secret, the speechless energy
So I can resist, the pretense, and creep into memories
And feel the weakness, defenseless, exempted from sentinel
To build a stronghold by tearing down the walls

I will trace curves on paper, create words that set apart
So my savior’s the eraser that you are

I dream of a sanctum with mirrors removed
So I can only see myself reflected in you
And echo like sunlight in night

I had promised myself that the world would fall apart
Instead the veil just fell away

My pride’s in remission, the king is dethroned
As these smaller kingdoms wave every white flag they own

Different Light: Anitya

My heart’s still failing to engage
As these words lie thinly on the page
It’s trench warfare, ten feet at a time
In a game that resets every single night

Even though the battles feel the same, there’s still no point in counting yesterdays

So I’ll take the fall, and pray for rain
Just to test my soul again
Find the love I’m yet to regain

The horizon hasn’t moved an inch
So with eyes closed, I measure by the wind
I’m no faster even at a sprint
I just pray I’ll never crawl again

Even though the battles feel the same, the light I cast is different everyday

So make way, I’m bearing down on love
To reclaim the birthright a son
‘Til this frame is bled to skin and bone
And I curse the tombs that I’ve called home

I’ll take the fall, and pray for rain
Just to test my soul again
Miles behind, just steps ahead
‘Til I’m shouting from my bed
My eyes closed, but I was never dead

Even though the battle’s still unclaimed
Even if these stones don’t hold my name
Even though my god lays cold again

Words: Sehnsucht

Words you spoke like feathers
They hit me like they’re stones
And shake the steely tethers
Of the apathetic lens I hold

Cause I’m a boy designed for immortal fights
With a useless, uncertain prize

I know very well, living in this symbiotic hell
At least I’m not alone

Let me rest a spell, ’til forgiveness learns to mask itself
As a means to atone

So take what you love about me and lay it to rest
Just bring me the words you find, for what is left
If we’re to die, on this hill send me instead
So I can be weak and die on my feet with a soldier’s death

The candle feeds the flame
Glad to show its worth
Does it know it can’t return?
That there is no second birth?

Yes, I know it all too well living in this symbiotic hell
I could not build alone

Let me rest a spell in the endless fragments of myself
That can hardly make a whole

Cut Me Loose: Arete

Vital signs are steady but there’re no signs of life
You’re a fire I’m using paper to hide
Happiness came like a thief in the night
I can tell she’s been here but been gone for quite some time

I’m just waiting for the gears to re-engage
Hoping this drink is strong enough to cut the brakes

You’ve held me so long
Cut me loose

Flat on the ground, just waiting for the vultures
Channeling spirits I’ve never known, for a feeling I’ve never had
On a tightrope wishing they’d take the net away
I want the chance to fall

Dear virtue, there’s been a change of plans
I’ve got my back to the city running faster than I can

I’m scared I’ve been here too long
Scared my soul’s growing roots
I’m so scared I’ve been here too long
Cut me loose

High On Nostalgia: Saudade

Swing swords that never hurt you
It’s just weaponized virtue
Cover your words in that bulletproof red
Painting the skin onto a skeleton

Split hairs with a blow torch
Plot your course before you soul search
Not all who wander are lost
But is it worth it to play the odds?

I’m still fighting to be ok with what I’ll take to my grave

Dance to these melodies and verses
I kinda hope it wasn’t worth it
I don’t wanna die on a high of nostalgia

So run like you missed your sweet chariot
‘Til you fly on wings never inherited
I don’t wanna wait, can’t wait ’til the end

This tastes too good to be poison
Toxic or intoxicating?
It wasn’t like someone died but they cried the same

No chance to draft a prenup
So this Sunday was a speed bump
On the dark side of a dead end sign
Couldn’t wait to floor it on the other side

Maybe I’m just a fish who hates the water
Staring at a kid splashing in the waves
Knowing even the floods topped Everest
I’d never want our worlds to be the same

I’m still fighting, knowing I’m not ok with what I’ll take to my grave

Dance to these melodies and verses
I kinda hope it wasn’t worth it
I don’t wanna die on a high of nostalgia

So run like you missed your sweet chariot
‘Til you fly on wings never inherited
I don’t wanna wait, can’t wait ’til the end
To see how close we’ve been

No: Mamihlapinatapei

I tried thinking it over but it’s all the same
Shouldn’t I feel better about that?
You’ve got style, you’ve got something I can’t take
Wouldn’t I be better without that? No

Tried glossing it over, but it’s still your name
That lingers on my lips for days
I got so tired of taking only what you gave
But did I step up and confess the truth? No

Is there something I should say?
(Can anything hurt worse than the silence?)
This web of words I weave won’t solve my problem but…
Could it make it better than today?
(Love can’t be born out of hesitance)
The kind of thing I ought to keep to myself…no

I tried thinking it over, but it’s all the same

Mixed Reviews: Part One
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Rosaline

It’s not that we were never meant to be, just meant to be a chapter
‘Cause you’re no Juliet, dear Rosaline, a prototype disaster
You’ll be the “someone” I recall, but have no reason to remember
I’ll be your summer and your fall before a cold and lonely winter

It’s funny we can never dare believe
When our love is blind, so we force the signs
And now I’m the only one to see
That the leaves have died, girl you tried

But you call yourself a lover
and love don’t even know your name
I’m just waiting for the thunder
To see if you can stand the rain

I’m sure that somewhere and someday
You’ll find your answer to the pain
Love isn’t something you create

You say “I love you” like a question, like you hope I have the answer
Measure our memories in likes and shares, the feeling’s just a factor
I don’t wanna be the one you call just to cause a scene for the world to see
You’re trying to prove your love to everyone else, just come and prove yourself to me

I still can feel you hesitate
If this is love why be afraid?
The truth is written on your face, yeah

Stranger Danger

Just scratch the surface, if you’re still afraid to dive
Don’t be nervous, we’re two wrongs that make a right
Close the curtains, tell the world to stay outside
Be uncertain, let this all stay undefined

I hung a thousand pictures on the wall because I knew I’d need
A thousand words a thousand times to show you what you mean to me

‘Cause we’ve found a way to Eden but it’s just the long way around
Found a hope that floats and then we ran it aground
So come down, I’m done chasing angels with my head in the clouds
Cause you’re not that perfect but you’re coming around
While I’m breaking you down
You can’t be everything I need

I’m your danger, I’m what makes you come alive
I’m your chaser, when your chest is filled with fire
The exception to rules you swore were iron clad
I’m the best bad influence that you have ever had

Never the charming caricature, I’m the sand that’s still between your toes
From when you left your high heels in the trunk and got ocean on your Sunday clothes

Girl I promise you when it’s said and done
There is nothing you could do to change this love

Robe and slippers, sipping coffee from behind
Picket fences, maybe somewhere down the line
But tonight, there’s a tree we haven’t climbed
A back road we need to drive and a devil in your eyes

You can’t be everything I need
But right now that’s all I want to believe

Recently Strong

I’ve been trying to write myself into a better state of mind
Stared so deep into the mirror that the stranger stepped aside
And I saw the man that I wish I was not

See this bitter taste of happiness has turned my stomach sour
There are smiles on every face around but I can’t find the power
Or understand, is there something I’ve lost?

I want the excuse, I want the nonchalance
I want to fade into the ambience
I need to know that I’m not crazy to think it’s lazy to be the same each and every day

I’m just so recently strong

Tell me why’s it so easy for you to say it’s all ok
How much of your life have you spent trying to hide it all away
Some say it’s strength, I can never see denial that way
And I hate to be the one to bring the smoke and mirrors down
I can see the plank in both our eyes, not how to pry it out
And I can’t pretend I can’t see the tears on your face

I miss the excuse, I miss the innocence
I miss the bruise that barely pierced the skin
I miss the chance to choose to maybe be the same each and every day

Hourglass

Our foot prints hide under falling leaves
As the sun peaks in through the naked trees
The colors sure bring life to this old scene

We found the corner where mystery’s born
And grows into wonder before too long
Cause I swear your eyes hold the truth that my heart needs

I stepped in quicksand with every kiss
I cried more tears than I thought exist
But your worn out halo still shines in my mind

So I’ll lose my sleep getting right with God
And protect our hearts from the firing squads
I pray this victory needs nothing more than time

If I can save you from myself It’d be the greatest thing I’ve ever done
But I can’t say you’re not better off alone
Skipping stones between heaven and hell Is just the latest game we’ve never won
But it still beats fighting and losing on my own

Love won’t come down to pros and cons
And it can’t boil down to what’s right and wrong
It all comes down to one thing you love
And the things you’d burn to keep it

Oh, I know it’s iron that sharpens iron
But your finger tips are so soft they grind just your standard miracle
that hides in the shadow of a secret

Hiroshima Summer

Must I always leave it all to feel alive the way I do now?
Don’t plan to call I won’t reply, if birds don’t mind I can do the same
Finding yourself is a lonely road, you got what I need but I have to go

Hiroshima, you’re making it hard for me…

The making of friends is best when the time of departure is known and near
Just long enough to care not long enough to be bothered by the things
That make you see the inside
Finding yourself is a lonely road, you got what I need but I have to go

Hiroshima, you’re making it hard for me…

Finding yourself is a lonely road, if I never came would I ever know?

And you’ll be miles away, but in my mind you’re down the hallway
I will miss you

Take It All

I was falling back into thoughts of letting go
I’ve been living to react, ’cause virtue is such a lonely road
See I was a commercial in her reality
A dream that she forgot in a thousand other thoughts
That came after me

There’s no way to lose this until we lose control
So I won’t let you take this unless you take it all

Sometimes I wish every hour had a sunset and a vow
That we could start again
Instead you walk around with your head in the clouds
Leaving too much to forgive
And I just couldn’t keep up with staged romances
How can I fight for this when each and every kiss
Is life or death?

Willfully Human
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The Stepping Stone: Rosaline

It’s not that we were never meant to be, just meant to be a chapter
‘Cause you’re no Juliet, dear Rosaline, a prototype disaster
You’ll be the “someone” I recall, but have no reason to remember
I’ll be your summer and your fall before a cold and lonely winter

It’s funny we can never dare believe
When our love is blind, so we force the signs
And now I’m the only one to see
That the leaves have died, girl you tried

But you call yourself a lover
and love don’t even know your name
I’m just waiting for the thunder
To see if you can stand the rain

I’m sure that somewhere and someday
You’ll find your answer to the pain
Love isn’t something you create

You say “I love you” like a question, like you hope I have the answer
Measure our memories in likes and shares, the feeling’s just a factor
I don’t wanna be the one you call just to cause a scene for the world to see
You’re trying to prove your love to everyone else, just come and prove yourself to me

I still can feel you hesitate
If this is love why be afraid?
The truth is written on your face, yeah

The Misogynist: White Collar Crimes

You say I’m the worst thing that could have happened to you
I can’t say that I disagree
‘Cause I know all the white lies which can assume you
And which secrets you don’t want me to keep
‘Cause I’m not one for watching you sleep
But I’ve got you, right where you think you wanna be

(They say) I’m foolish pride personified
Sweetie you can take your number and wait in line

I’ve got the world wrapped around my finger
And your thoughts in the palm of my hand
A boyfriend’s charm with an ex’s demeanor
I’m exactly who you think I am

I feel I fall in and out of love easier than I fall asleep
And I haven’t slept in days
The only difference I see between you and me
Is I can tell we’re both the same
‘Cause I’m not one to wanna listen to you breathe
But I’ve got you right where you think you wanna be

I’m foolish pride personified
Sweetie you can take your number and wait in line
Un-televised white collar crimes
I’ve got an imagination that doesn’t care what I think

There are times when I think that you’re the most beautiful girl
And there are times when I’m sober
I’m not a helpless romantic just misdiagnosed
By everyone in the world

The Used: The Sweet Escape

She’s as beautiful as these eyes can stand
But a common rose when in apathetic hands
Love is never such a careless crime
As when forever has turned into one more night
I’ll be your tourniquet until the day
You find these arms can only numb the pain, and you say

I was broken long before you came
Take your chances take another part of me
I’ll anticipate your sweet escape
Just let me down easy

We lose control like the devils we are
Soothe my soul, hell has never felt to close to heaven
We cross the lines even though we know
Hands can’t hide anywhere the hearts won’t follow
And now she wonders if she’s worth the fight
Can she find the beauty that she lost that night? And she cries

Everything I say is just left out and cast away
and you say “I have never been that kind of girl
Your blushing bride to be, I’m your Delilah not your Eve
I’m sorry I am just the swine before your pearls
I will never give you what you say you think you want
I can give you what you ned and nothing more
And what I need is not to be your siren call, your sweet release
I’ll be your calm, the eye of every storm”

The Vagabond: Erasing the End

She traced his shoulders, while he braced to hold her
Until they both forget what she had said
But the door behind her, was a sure reminder
That our bodies stay even when our hearts are gone

A key left on the table, she’d never use again
She’d forget if she was able, the places she had been

‘Cause though I’ve traveled for miles and miles I can’t seem to find a way

He strained but misheard, through the wave of whispers
As the only face in a crowd of practiced charm
But he stayed to witness, how strange the difference
When faith is broken in and lines are drawn

He said I’ll learn to remember each isolating road
And love the sweet surrender of never being home

Waiting on the sunrise in the darkest part of night
Burning everything I have so I will never lose this fire
I was living, laughing, loving in a tireless cliche
Moving ’til I barely noticed how things start to look the same
Now on the eve of desperation comes an un-surpassing doubt
‘Cause we find out what we’re made of when we find what breaks us down
Breaking promises and ties than leave no chances for amends
But I’d rather leave with nothing than know how this story ends

Interlude: Why Are You Doing This?

Your eyes are the brightest they’ve ever been
But you face is so dark
And I can’t help but let you in
When you gently knock

I don’t dare to contend there’re worst things than loneliness
after what he’s done
It’s such a beautiful sin, to have you here again
though we’re only half in love

I can be your friend, be your tourniquet
but I can’t stop the pain
I wanna hold you here and kiss away your tears
But not like this

It’s not fair knowing everything we say
is writing with chalk in the rain
And we share our feelings just today
‘Cause in the morning none remain

The Dependable: Chalk in the Rain

I felt like I was dreaming
The first time our eyes were meeting
And I wan in awe of you
I remember the way I was breathing
And every step your feet were leading
As I lost my mind in you

How could you toss out our peaceful memories
That you’ve lost and buried in their grave
They’re not marked with even a name
And leave me wandering through cemeteries
Brought down by burdens of loves we’ve carried
All in vain

I remember the time I saw you dancing
Silent and shy, your eyes entrancing
In the night, how I’d die to be with you
But I never thought with the time we’d been spending
That we’d still lack a happy ending
Or that I’d still have to try so hard for you just to see me

And my words fall to the ground again
I’m no stranger to pain
Tossed like a cradle in a hurricane
Lost like chalk in the rain

Do I have to cry to see if I’m worth comforting?
Do I have to bleed to see if I’m worth saving?

Needful Things
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Midnight

Take apart the broken piece, all the angels look the same
To a world of counterfeited crimes and heathens who barely know their name
‘Til they lose a little hope like mine, go and look at anyone and you will find it’s too late
Too late for you to go and try to cry, have a better place for you to rest your eyes and be saved

An Empty Room

If our love was only words we’d be a fairy tale
Or a movie where you know if it’s true we will prevail
But the truth’s I’m not the fantasy that you deserve
Or the one to take your breath without saying a word
And we’ve been dancing around this for what feels like forever
Waiting for the moment you realize I’ll never
Be the one with the kiss to break the curse

You shattered me and then cut yourself on the pieces of what we could have been
I know i swore to never give up but it feels like there’s nothing left to defend

So when did you become so sure that you need to move?
Running away to find yourself, no matter what you loose?

You’ll come home, you’ll come home

No more beating up myself on your behalf
No more offering you my all and getting nothing back
Cause you’ve made it obvious you don’t need my help
So I’m done trying to protect you from yourself
But when I tell you how it is there’s always something I’ve missed
Pardon me your highness who am I to contradict?
It’s amazing how we invent all these countless arguments
That could’ve been avoided if I’d used some common sense

You’ll come home, you’ll come home…to an empty room

But I can’t stop hoping we find a way
You’ll never forgive me just try to forget

Bulletproof

I’m not a prophet who interprets dreams, but I know you got a couple fantasies
That you won’t do what you won’t do I’ll do
And we could sit around and argue it just like two con-artist with a fetish for the truth
I figure I got about ten more songs to get to you
But if I made you lose your mind, would you still go out and find a way to be the ones who show maturity?
What you won’t be, I’ll be
And you can be the liar I can be the lie while we stand here looking up at the truth
I’ll open fire till it’s bullet proof

Heaven forbid you find the places where the greys must hide
In a world of black and white ‘
Cause whose to judge when even saints are wearing a disguise
In another man’s paradise
I guess the life I live’s the only one worth living twice

But you play your parts ’cause in your hearts you’re all just camera shy celebrities
What you won’t dream
I’ll dream I can’t find the strength in numbers
in a crowd of lifeless puppets who can see their strings
And are just grateful they don’t have to think
I’ll pick my poison and love the taste, every remedy’s a waste

I’m addicted to the therapy, so good luck treating me

I can’t be the only one to ever fall in love with destructive tendencies
My guardian angel’s gonna earn his wings

If I’m an angel, I’m more Lucifer than Michael
If I’m a believer, I’m more demon than disciple

Persephone

If I could hang all of the stars upon the ceiling
Or hold my breath as long as God has made the evening Would you ever see me?
If I rearranged this room into a love scene
Painted perfectly with petals, and a bed so lovely Would you ever love me?

I’ve been told the sea is full of other souls but I can’t meet what I don’t know
I won’t be another fool who ends up drowning alone
In a tale that’s racing to unfold my heart was turning into stone in a wasteland
But darling now it’s awakened

I will love you, like you never knew
And if Persephone was raptured up to save us
Not even her right hand could break us

If I had a thousand novels written down inside me
If I were put together perfectly like Aphrodite, would you ever like me?
If I had everything that you had thought would ever
Make you feel anything if we could only be together? Oh forever

I’d risk every belief, every charm I conceived,
And stand on the creed, I could be your fantasy
Just one single kiss from ridlin lips
And love could eclipse the fact we can’t exist

Who thought that fairy tales could turn me into a fool?
Like I could click my heels and I would be with you?
Like I was cupid and you were the one I loved

Picket Fences

I took a poll of white picket fences
And all the people with social senses
Living lives of opportunity
And those who spent a couple nights on old park benches
Like a throne of their own invention
‘Cause God, it feels good to be so naive

While the pessimist’s love is passed around like an audible drug
‘Til it’s out and it’s never enough Just a mediocre masterpiece
Though my lies are rarely honest just like an alcohol proof promise
From a camera shy celebrity, I’ll be who I pretend to be

Even though they said I was a rebel
I was saying amen with the Devil
And grace wasn’t amazing enough for me
And when I get to Heaven I will praise him
Though I may live in the basement
Because even in God’s wildest dreams He never thought he’d see me

I don’t need your classrooms full of white collar lectures
Don’t need a house for the architecture
I’m not the kind of boy your parents want you to see
Though I could probably court you into a pretty picture
With a clip on tie while I’m quoting scripture
But that’s just about as much fun as it seems

So call me Mr. Never Enough
I guess music was an audible drug
But one I’d never want to give up though I’m a couple notes from the brink
And I may be too gone to make a promise
But at least this bottle makes me honest
Though my imagination had one too many drinks and it doesn’t care just what I think

The Dependable: Chalk in the Rain

I felt like I was dreaming
The first time our eyes were meeting
And I wan in awe of you
I remember the way I was breathing
And every step your feet were leading
As I lost my mind in you

How could you toss out our peaceful memories
That you’ve lost and buried in their grave
They’re not marked with even a name
And leave me wandering through cemeteries
Brought down by burdens of loves we’ve carried
All in vain

I remember the time I saw you dancing
Silent and shy, your eyes entrancing
In the night, how I’d die to be with you
But I never thought with the time we’d been spending
That we’d still lack a happy ending
Or that I’d still have to try so hard for you just to see me

And my words fall to the ground again
I’m no stranger to pain
Tossed like a cradle in a hurricane
Lost like chalk in the rain

Do I have to cry to see if I’m worth comforting?
Do I have to bleed to see if I’m worth saving?

The Orphan

I’m starting to think that we just may be the control group of an experimental society
And we lack the drug that makes love a possibility
Consulting the stars from the backseats of cars
Can I hide here with you till karma forgets to come for me?
And when the coast is clear, we’ll take our shame and run

We stay between the lines where we are undefined,
From if to maybe, never more than sometimes
Sardonic compliments from wandering lips and minds
Riddle me this is there something I missed?
Or is this the same guilt I swore I’d never feel again?
Sometimes the side effect’s worse than the medicine

Until we finally see the void is decomposing
See the right three notes can be a drug that’s worth overdosing on
And they make me see this little town has something more than we had ever dreamed
That we could be And even though I’m filled with fading, childish dreams
Just maybe I m the orphan that she needs

If I laced this track with aphrodisiacs
And a promise to make you feel everything you’d ever need
Would it be bad if when I told you that I didn’t even believe me?
Went from hanging at the mall to shots of alcohol
To bedrooms so we can brag To all our friends of all the things we’ve seen

A Little Louder

When did you realize, that we weren’t the same?
(She said) “The first time I didn’t like the way your mouth said my name”
But no matter what they say, I guess true love can be a foolish mistake

We drove for hours, looking for excuses to stay
Wishing we were back to back, running in opposite ways
But we wouldn’t last a day,
Without knowing somehow we would meet each other halfway

It feels like I m singing hallelujah when I say your name
‘Til our hearts aren’t as useless as some people claim

If I’d know that you were stronger, I would’ve kissed a little longer
If I’d known that you were out there, I would have gone to you
If I’d known that you were farther from me, I would have run a little harder
Since the first time I saw you was the first time I felt alive

Your lips have never felt like a stranger’s before
I’ve yet to pull up to your house, your hand’s already on the door
I see I could never be yours, be yours
And if that’s for the best, why am I so unsure?

I guess like holy water, love requires belief
Someone to lay on the altar, instead we stare at our feet
As we see even if our love was a dream
Waking was the answer to a prayer we didn’t need

Nothing makes you crazy as taking sides/In the civil war of your state of mind/ But a week ago, we were sure love could be eternal /Now it’s like to each his own/ we’re keeping score/ unleashing those/ reasons it d be easy that seem like a dreamer’s hope/ We could be misleading each other, how would we even know?/ Please tell me I m not believing alone/ And we’re just to stubborn to be vulnerable/ But now I can see/ we could never be/ The perfect couple that we thought we saw/ In the picture we’d dreamed/ now the puzzle’s complete/ And we can see that the picture’s wrong/ I’ll find the words to admit that I’m wrong again/ If you can remember why we’re arguing/ I thought together we d be worth someone/ But sticks and stones broke us down with words like ”um”

A Common Rose

Have you ever wondered why do hearts stop beating?
Or how forever only lasts a season?
Leaving lonely lovers in a hotel cheating
Watch it all start slipping away…

Have you ever wondered why do hearts stop beating?
It’s not good enough, it’s not good enough
What happens on the road to make them lose their feelings
And say “I’m giving up, it’s not good enough”?
Like a dying rose evades the day
Isn’t it sad we’re all programmed to feel this way?
Until we finally see that the hour glass was empty as a wedding band
In the darkness on the corner of a night stand

Have you ever noticed how it’s always leading
From “We’re falling out of love” to “He’s not good enough”?
Those that hoped that love would be more of a physical feeling
From lovers in a rut to ”she’s become a slut”
Can broken lips consider how to kiss?
Can broken hearts remember to forget?
How can fading hope learn to resist
The one whose on your mind no matter who you’re with?

And we try to make-believe our guilt’s not justified
Counting on the tears that we cry
‘Til you think that I would not do anything to hurt you

Lover of a Lesser God

Once upon a time there was a boy who found true love
But he couldn’t turn that whore into a princess even if he kissed her long enough
And while idol hands are working, their fingers to the bone
Between amens rehearsing, the lies their lips compose
The other day I saw your friends and for one last time
I went up and said we could be friends, I guess I’ve learned how to lie
Like a cure without a cancer, optimistically inclined
‘Til little girls found love was not the answer, to why they re on our minds

These faceless replacements, I’d try anything to get me through
Epileptic phases, But nothing ever felt as good as you
Sigh, am I a disciple of the bodies I’m courting?
Or just a lover of a lesser you?

See the best thing I never learned
Is how to play prince charming in this fantasy that we rehearse
‘Til we’re picture perfect puppets, and simulated brides
Telling lies to perfection, from infatuated minds
It’s a little tough to remind myself I’ve a love worth falling in
When the only parts of you I’ll miss are those I could pay to have again
God, please pull the curtain, cause something’s just not right
My life is but a parody, of love and suicide

If our hands could learn to kiss and tell, we had fidelity that we could sell
But love is just a curse, repeatedly rerehearsed
Conditional forgiveness kills, the conscious of our past
As fading faces fold into, forgotten photographs

If hands could learn to kiss and tell, we had fidelity that we could sell
But love is just a curse, repeatedly rerehearsed
In eleventh hour emptiness, our prays turn into bribes
As lovers drown in waters where, they were once baptized

These faceless replacements, I’d try anything to not get caught
Narcissistic praises But nothing ever seemed to turn you off
Sigh, are we disciples of the bodies we’re courting?
Or just lovers of a lesser god?

Holding Back the Tide

If I memorized the lines till I was old, of every ghost story ever told
You would be the only thought that haunts me
If I made a list of lies about how I feel, You know I’m too afraid of being healed
To say I m over you, cause that’s the one that I can t get used to

So I could spend the rest of my life, holding back the tide

To a broken heart you know the past’s not far, when it still lives in the moments that you are
And where we used to be
Right now the only way I don’t fall apart, is to get drunk enough to think you are out there
Finally listening to me
If life’s a question of our doubts and how we solve them
You were the picture perfect problem of my dreams

This could be the most honest I’ve ever been…I prefer the sickness to the medicine
I could envy an abandoned bride, if she’d spent a moment by your side

Now all I can do is leave stains on this perfect page, repeating words that you could never get me to say
Like the coward inside, only found strength in the tears that you cried

So I could spend the rest of my life, holding back the tide

It’s in the pictures on a life we knew
The way I fell in love with you
The first time for real emotion
Dancing by the ocean

And the waves that crashed me into you
Our first kiss that afternoon
Me trying not to be shy
You sitting in the moon light

Smiling through our arguments
Blue eyes and a summer dress
Little love reminders
Road trips through Carolina

And how you sing without a sound
How you breathe when I lay you down and
Your eyes, your lies make me cry
Every time I think I’m over you

It All Burns Away

We lay in silence with our paper mouths
And speak words lips can’t pronounce
As we dream with open eyes while our lullabies fill with doubt
Our youthful glee lost in places God has never found

We held our places in warm embraces
Careful not to let the cold air in
Every strife we had neatly folded and packed
Tied with ribbons of sarcasm

The world’s lost its color and sound
Our city lights become ghost towns
We’ll be together, forever side by side
While clandestine lovers fall between
Believer’s plight and poet s dream
I’ll chase the dark and fall into her light

Waves blow our whispers out into the storm
And flames leave our ashes on the ocean floor
That begins to shake, and leaves me trembling at the force
Then I see your face

My fingers slowly danced in the palm of your hand
Spelling words and silent signs
Pick each letter like a rose for our tombstone
Over the bed in which we lie

It all burns away

My December, my surrender, if time remembers just one night
Know the fiery skies, and the stars so bright, And the storm that cries are within her eyes

I found a garden where the seeds were buried far beyond my reach
I swore on hands and knees I’d help them find the light
Now in my restlessness I wait to see the ground open its face
And for a moment see the display forever hidden in her eyes

Aegri Somnia and Hidden Track

Everyone’s hopeful, most everyone’s a fool
Everyone’s happy, and everyone’s cruel
Everyone’s working, on something no one wants to do
We’ve got no burning bush, lifted less than we’re pushed, hearts are coming unglued

I’ve lived my life trying to be a person you’d choose
Watching the dead and dying lifting prayers to gods that they never knew
How can hearts be lost for denying, something minds can’t accept as the truth
The hardest part of living a life is wanting to be alive

Everyone’s becoming their own unique disease
Everyone’s running to be something no one wants to be

There are times when this life seems so beautiful
And each breath’s one more step I take in faith
That there’s more than this world for this sparrow
And He’ll heal these wings and all needful things that He’s willing to save

I used to think heaven was just a prayer away
And even the coldest hearts could find the words to say
Then I saw hell’s chorus and could recall the names
Of every forgotten soul, now just faces in the flames

Why are we alone? Where did you go? My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?

Life’s like walking through a cemetery, where everyone’s buried
Though your hands have opened every coffin you can carry
There’s no one there you love

Needful beggars, unloved forever
Where’s the god we were promised when we were young?